I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cried And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you
I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the clothes you left They lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too And when you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you
We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah
When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear will always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you
Worked at COMEX 2007 with Kazzie. And it was such a coincidence that Ian was working there too. Been standing since 1130 to 2230. This is enough to kill. And my legs doesn't seem to belong to me anymore. Gosh!! I need lots of rest and to bring my ankle guard with me tmr. Wouldn't wanna over-strain my leg. I still have my aerobics challenge to look forward to.
Been raining non-stop lately and I thought I'll might as well stay home and make myself some healthy and non-fattening sweet stuffs. And remembering I bought the popsicle maker. It would be good to make some frutie-popsicles... YUMMY!!
But got really lazy after reading the papers. And started chatting online. Until Mav msged me online and asked if I wanna go tanning. And was really keen cause I'm turning fair which is a bad sign. Or rather it is to me. So changed and head out to get my ass burn. And if you're wondering how we go tanning when I said it was raining. The sun was actually out by afternoon and was real scorching. Gosh! I almost got cooked while waiting for Mav at the busstop.
Anyway, was kinda worried that the pool might be packed and it's kinda dread to be swimming thru' people and making way for others. But I was kinda lucky. Cause I had my 10 laps without much trouble. And lay on the beach chair and slack. I love this to core. Forgetting everything and lie there enjoying the birds flying above you and prolly have some hunks tanning near you. Got a bit darker today and my body's giving off heat now. I'm suspecting if I'm getting sick because of the rain that came while we were still in our bedding suits. SHUCKS!!! So who's the rain-maker??? *smug*
Anyway, head home and begin making popsicles... WHOO-PEE!!!
Step 1: Getting all the ingredients ready....
Step 2: Getting the juice ready.
Step 3: Don't throw the pulp away. Fruit fibres helps in digestion. Kazzie correct me if I'm wrong. *smile* Then pour the orange juice into the container. DONE!!
Step 4: Now making the Honey Lemon flavoured ones. First get the juice of half a lemon.
Step 5: Melt the honey. Mix in the lemon juice. Taste it to make sure it's not too sour.
Step 6: Pour it into the container. And........
TA-DA!!! Freeze it and you'll have nice tasty popsicles... No more buying from supermarkets. Make it yourself.
I know I'm kinda dumb to blog about all these procedures since it's like so freaking easy stuffs. But I'm just bored. Bear with me. *smile*
It's all said and done. But do they know the after effects? Even the strongest person in the world have their down times. They might not be as strong as they seem from the outside. We start to feel tired about the things happening around us. Some of us walk off, brushing everything off the shoulders. But some just cant. Clinging onto what supposed to be dump into bin.
Saying things without meaning it is easy. Everyone can do. But change a point of view and be the party listening to what is being said. Everyone loves nice words. But have you ever thought to yourself, which part of those nice stuffs are serious and which don't even mean a thing.
Adoration leads us to blindness. It's almost close to impossible to be able to differentiate the truth or the false. We hate to accept facts, cause there might be possibility of getting hurt. But we learn from our mistakes. Even the slightest scratch takes time to heal. What would I need to say about a deep cut.
Sometimes we're just disappointed with the things happen around us. Well.. I am! But it's seems that the world is still revolving and not taking glance at how I'm feeling. That includes .... Everything seems like yesterday, but frankly it's not. Everything is different now. Scars are left behind to remind us how we fall. Some step back to prevent from getting hurt. There're some who try over and over again, there's where we fall over and over again. But what did we benefit from all these? Prolly lots of scars.
Denial and defensive. A sign of protection. All of us have our own story to tell. Being in a same story, yet we tell it the different way. So who's right and who's wrong? We never know. But in any case, we take our stand.
But most importantly, are we ready to move on? Time waits for no man. And lately it really hits me that life is short and we really have to live to the fullest. Gosh! I feel old now. So many things happening recently. Maybe tmr it's me? I don't know. Emotion fills me...
And I mean a really heavy one which spoiled our plan. Supposed to meet Keline and Jordan for swimming session this morning, but the rain is making it impossible. So I carried on with my sleep. All my friends who are working must be so jealous of me. Bumming my ass for the past 3 months. Gosh! I cant believe myself too. But all the spending is making me broke this holidays.
Anyway, saw Keline online this morning and she told me the pants she wore yesterday was accidentally bleached by T's mummie. Opps!! Another DIY item. *smug*
All this while I was praying that the rain will stop soon, so that I can go out rather than sitting in front of the PC and staring at that idiot being online. *grins* Tried to keep myself occupied by doodling with photoshop. And I realise my skills improved by a little. Kazzie will know why.
Then Keline decided that we'll go out. Hmm.. Think my whining moved her. And so she decided to sacrifice for running under the rain and after the train. Super duper touched. Then we went to daiso to begin our aunty-selves.. HAHA! Bought a popsicle maker.. YUMMY!! This can help to satisfy my sweet cravings. I'm going to do a experiment tmr. And make one officially for Keline on friday when she comes over.
Never miss out my favourite place, the Pet Safari. I love doggies to core. Oh my! I always have the urge to grab one home. But there's so much restrictions. But still I hope I'll be able to own one myself in the future. Love! And Keline loves the Shitzu in the below picture. It's super adorable!!!
I'm totally lost at the kind of attitude I'm getting now. I don't know whether to laugh or be touch at the kind of treatment I'm getting now. Shouldn't I be left alone?
Back from dinner at Jordan's.. This guy can really cook and really make good food. So any girl who get him next time, don't be surprise if you start gaining weight.
Anyway, we had madness during dinner. Esp when we were revealing Jordan's deepest secrets, Trina's poor chinese, Keline's... I doubt she have anything for us to start with and me.. Nothing much too. But these 2 are enough to keep us laughing.
Keline's all freaked out with Ally *jordan's fierce pitcher*. She's so so not adorable. She's been barking the whole night and aint getting tired. Everytime she scratches her nails on the floor, Keline starts to get paranoid.
Trina left early, cause she had test on wednesday. All the best, babe!!!!!
Then we had our usual wine session after dinner. We had shiraz sponsored by Keline. WHOO!! Okay~* I still stick to my merlot. Although I don't really have sweet tooth. But I still prefer Merlot to Shiraz. Something sweeter.
But it wasn't a very good sit down and enjoy session. It was a super rush one.. Gosh! We finished a bottle within half and hour. Madness huh!!!! Now I'm all tipsy and blogging. My mind's going blank now. I don't know what I'm going to type next.
But I just know, I've to train harder this week after all those sinful food I ate.
Thanks Jordan for the FANTASTIC DINNER!!!!!!!!
I'm hooked onto this song now.. It's so addictive...
Plucked up the courage to say everything I needed to. I should be feeling relieve and happy. But I'm not exactly feeling so. Is it normal? Kazzie says it is. One thing I feel happy about is prolly that I wouldn't have to avoid you anymore. But the thing that is bugging me is that you don't seem to get what I'm trying to say and everything's like the usual way it is. I don't know if it's good or bad. You're treating me like what we use to be in the initial state. But it's not going to be all the same again. I cleared my mind and hopefully it's going to be over soon.
It's mimee's birthday. So we went out early to have lunch before she head to work. Was kinda rush, cause we slept late and it's super dread to drag myself outta bed.
Head down to town to pick up my event kit for my aerobics marathon on the 1st of september. Hmm.. It's kinda nice to be in town alone. Strolling without any pressure and enjoying the crowd around you. Checking out people around you.
Whole purpose is, I didn't walk into any shopping mall after I picked up my stuffs. I guess I would be an angsty me if I were to step into any of them. I just like the sun, the passerby and the bookstores..
Which reminds me that I saw Jonathan ... I cant remember his surname. He was one of the top few Singapore Idol. And he's not very cool, but the book he bought was cool. It's Johnny Depp's biography. HAHA!
Hang around borders for awhile before heading home. Tempted to buy so many graphics designing books. But I'm so broke now. Which left me with only one choice, Shape magazine. Sigh!
It's so sunny today and the heat is really killing me. I hate those makeup on my face when it's so hot outside. My pores cant seem to be breathing and it's bad. But what can I do? Have to doll up when you go out. That's what girls always do. :)
I'm looking forward to aerobics marathon... WHOO-PEE!!!
It's a family without any family values. Isn't that sad?
Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 8:43 PM
It's simply Zenology...
Went for a short run this evening.. Hmmm.. Really short one as compared to a month back. Gosh! I need to train harder now. SHUCKS!!!! Anywayz, something stupid hit me as I was walking home after my run.
I always tell people that tannlines are known as sexy line. So what does the stench after you sweat means?!?!?! Sexy scent?? Hmm.. Was laughing to myself while walking and I think people who walked pass me thought I was outta my mind.
Anyway, I'm feeling so good after all the sweating session.
Back from Changi General Hospital and I'm feeling too good now. Not that I'm sick, but seeing my friend lying there in the intensive care unit. Although we don't have really close friendship, but it really aches seeing him lie there and seeing that every breathe he take seems to take so much of his energy. He's fighting hard. And we all know that.
He's the best fighter in class, the fittest of all. He's the stud in class. And I always telling my girl-friends that he's the number one cutest in class. But no matter how strong you, be it being able to run the longest, swim the furthest or cycle the fastest. When accident happens, everything shattered like a glass falling onto the ground.
Life's so fragile and unpredictable. You might be training hard or partying hard today. But when accidents happen, you just be like him lying there, feeling so helpless. You wish you could just hug your mum who had been trying to wake you up for the million times. Or hug your girlfriend who comes down to visit you everyday after her work. Or stays right by you on weekends. But you just couldn't. All you can do feel their touch, but you could not reciprocate what they are doing.
It's just so hurting to see the person whom I always play my stupidest kung fu tricks on, now lying helplessly there. I thought I was strong enough. But seeing him there just make things difficult. I feel sorry for the family. My tears filled up my eyes, but I can't let it flow. Seeing his mum and girlfriend being so strong and looking on the bright side, the tears just held back by its own.
But I'm not superman or wonderwoman, emotions fills me now. I cant hold them back and it's flowing fast. It's pain and I'm hurting. Yet I've no idea why all these emotions hit me this hard.
Just hope he wakes up and be able to joke around soon.
Went over to Kaz's to stay over for a night. Purpose there?!? To help her complete her 50 worksheets' evaluation. But we didn't complete it. Instead we did lots of girly stuffs, like getting nails polished, discussing about make up and all.
Slept super duper late this morning and our darling Kaz's phone was ringing and vibrating non-stop. HAHA!!! I almost climb over to get the phone and smashed it. Awaken by Keline's message in the morning, but was too dope to even reply her. Took me awhile to drag my heavy body outta bed.
Then soon, our little sleeping beauty woke up. WHOO-PEE!!! It's shopping spree day. YAY!!! Wash up, put on make up and headed down to town with my heavy bag and laptop. HOW NICE!?!?! Gosh! It's cause so much pain and pressure on my shoulder. Now I hardly feel them on me now.
Mum called me and was screaming about my disappearing action. And yeah! Aunties can really NAG!!! I'M HOME NOW!!!!
So in short I tried new and definitely nice food and walked alot today. My legs are aching and my brains not working.. So I'll let the photos speak!
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