Dilemma hits. I don't know what I should do next. Keeping myself occupy and giving myself excuses to avoid all those decisions making. Allowing myself to look like a clown. Doing nonsense to let all know I'm fine. Don't know when I'll be fine or not. Putting on a mask to be what they want me to be. Changing into what some people want me to be. Looking all "garang" in front of you. *That's what you want me to be* Acting all ignorant. *which is what you see me as too* Wondering what a person I am. Trying all ways to get your attention. *But I just get nothing in the end* Feeling lost at times. Missed you, at the same time knowing all is just a dream.
Prolly I'm just tired and wish to put everything behind. All these hiding might just have tell you what I couldn't put into words. Now I'm so much happier. No more sitting in front of this PC waiting for you to pick me up. I wont look back anymore. Cause there's so much more in front that's waiting for me.. I'm glad K's enlighten me. She just bring out all those facts that I wont be able to face it myself. Thankful!! This is the time, I'm allowing myself to behave badly about you. Cause this is also the last time I'm going to allow myself to think about all.
Erased off!!!!
*shucks!! Why did I become all emo now??* But I wont let myself put up that Garang side for 3 minutes!! After this 3 minutes, I'm the strong girl I used to be. Smile for ME!!!!!
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This is awkard. I'm suppose to introduce myself here. But I guess if you are able to read this page,
you are 80% a very close pal of mine. Which also means whatever I've typed here is just bullsh*t.
Aint I right? Just continue reading my random-ness then.
