Moody Zennie

So many things just flow into my mind.
I forced my smile this afternoon, yet I don't know why I'm doing so. Cause I know I shouldn't be behaving like what I did. Things run thru' my mind.

Peace~*

Jewel - Foolish Games



You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that

I watched from my window,
always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair,
you were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, and talking over coffee
Your philosophies on art Baroque moved you,
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of you loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar

Well excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me
you're tearing me you're tearing me apart
and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
you were always crazy like that

Dinner @ Serangoon





I cooked dinner for my 2 lovely buddies yesterday. Whoo!!! Kay! This shows that I'm not the MANLY kind that only knows how to eat and do nothing. HAHAHA!! Hmm.. Which also says that you can cook only if you're womanly.. WAHAHAHAHA!!!

Anywayz, hope they enjoyed dinner and I think we did numerous nonsensical stuffs last night. Hmm... Someone even got dr*nk.... Opps.. I'll not mention it here.

Just came back from my super long time nvr dip into the pool swim. Gosh! The sun was really glaring and I was so worried that I might get my eyes a nice goggles tan. But luckily I did my 20laps quick and got out of the water for a real tan. But it's kinda awkard to be the only lady at pool. Cause all the lifeguard were staring at me. And I was pretend nothing's happening. UGH! Damn lah! I'm not that gorgeous and just because I'm the only lady doesn't mean you have the right to stare at me.

Left after 15minutes of tan, which is equivalent to no tan. Hopefully tmr's tan at sentosa would be better. Since I'm heading down with 2 gorgeous. SWEET!!!

The full of picture's blog is back and I'm not getting use to it. Hmm... But I just cant leave out the funny pictures we took yesterday. So much fun and so much love!!!

HUGS!

Disappointed!!

I'm too fat to run after exams... UGH!
I cut down by half... So disappointed!! Gosh!!!!

Back to my Favorite Place

Surprise



A little reveal to Keline's surprise on wednesday.
Is my plan working? *smug*

Nonsensical

Day out....

Went over to Ivan's this evening, cause Janice bought us sashimi from a warehouse at woodlands. WHOO-PEE!!! I'm so in love with it. Jordan must be drooling!!! HAHAHA!!

And I miss machi so so much. She's still as cute.
Muacks!



Reflection with machi!!!!!!!!!

Then we head down to Defu Lane for crabs.. Yummie!!


I had my favourite butter crab. And Janice ordered her favourite chilli crab. Photo of us and food. I enjoyed myself.. I miss them all.

Fat ass Max just broke his chair....

Because pictures speak a thousand words....

I'll not write much for this entry. But I've to say, lots nonsensical stuffs happening in a day is really tiring and I'm having so much fun. Love the babes and the FOOL! *smug* And this aint a new word I invented. Some people just got so much to learn.. I'm so EVIL!!!

And sometimes, it's really nice to be able to do some little stuffs for some love ones and put a smile on their face. Hopefully they're smiling while eating the Sara-Lee cake that I bake and Jordan enjoyed the swedish meatball delivery from Tampines Ikea.

Cake Baking!

Desperate

Stop being the one turning away, cause I've yet to be the one to do that when it's always my right to. I'm so tired of all these coming to you when you need me. Yet I've so much hold backs when I need you.

I don't know your motive, but it's getting on my nerves now. And I seriously cant get this off my mind.

I know I'm being unreasonable. But I just want to do this once. And leave me alone!

THIS IS SEXY



So deal or no deal?

Sweetness!

Something sweet enough to make u tear and smile.

Holidays

I'm not doing much this holidays. Just staying home and enjoying my all time favourite series, Grey's Anatomy.

Met the guys (ray & xian) yesterday to hang out and passed him some maths notes. It's kinda good to just clear some stuffs from the room. *smile*


Down to Rotchester Road to chill out.
Was good to enjoy a glass of drink. But the smoke was intense thou'.

Jordan called in the evening. He's going to change pamela for someone new. Oh GOSH!!! Poor Pam is replaced. The sexy vespa is taking it's place real soon. YUMMIE!
This's gonna be so fun!

Latest Obsession

OOGIE BOOGIE



"Angels Or Devils"

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Sotongs!

This afternoon was hell for me. My neighbour had some religious rituals going on and the were burning some kind of essence that last for 3 hours and it almost killed me. Stupid Max was so obsess playing his WOW! So I'm left to die in my room.

Called Rach for coffee.. WHOO-PEE!! Finally I'm getting out of home. YAY!!!
Shopping in town on a weekend is horrible. And I hate crowds and queues.. UGH!
Favourite hangout place, CAFES!!! Love!

Hmm.. But I guess we did something really daring today. But wasn't intentional. We forget to foot the bill before leaving and we walked off like we had everything paid. So embarrassing. HAHA!!!

We should have just ran off in different direction.
HA!

Bed Ridden

Hmm... I guess most of you already know that I've cancelled my diving trip from my previous entry and that you all know that I've been also bed-ridden. Hmmm... But acting like myself, I usually live as per normal lah. I guess this time is better, cause I went to the doc. One step out! But that was with reasons. Hoping to be able to join the diving team. But it came out as an disappointment. Enough of that.

I read something really sweet at Jordan's bloggie yesterday and received the sweetest message. Friends have been asking about my condition. I'm doing good. And I know if I'm not going to recover soon, I'll have to answer it myself. Have to confess, I ate all the wrong things today. Had nasi briyani this morning and KFC for dinner. Not too good for a sick cat huh. And I know I've 2 lovely friends who are concern and worried about me, yet I'm doing all these. I'm really sorry. I ate lite tomorrow. PROMISE!!!!

Shucks!! The hormone pills that I've been taking for the past 2 weeks, just because I thot I'll be at tioman now. Is doing side-effects to me!!!! I seems to be emo easily lately. What did the pills do to me. UGH! I'm starting to act while.. Even teared while watching grey's anatomy! Tell me why! It's just funny.

I'm changer into a wierder person. ARGH!!!!!

Scary!

Room cleared! So much happier now.
No more grumpy humpty dumpty!!!

Disappointment!!!!

I'm not heading to tioman this weekend. I'm not doing good.. Been bed ridden this afternoon and still feeling lousy!! Gosh. So much trouble cause I feel so sorry for the people around me. And doc says that my body would be put in a dangerous situation if I go ahead with everything.

I've longed for this day. But now everything's postponed.
Simply Sadness!

Free!!

but not feeling so good now.. I'm so down with fever and migrane and the next thing I knew. I'm going diving in like less then 12 hours time. this is so bad. My body's so not prepared. Ugh! Done so many wrong stuffs yesterday and I think it's not as easy as I think it would be. GOSH! Don't feel a sense of belonging there. I'm worried now. My stamina is not there and I cant seems to make things work. Prolly because I jus ended papers and my body wants me to relax more and not work it too much. Freaking diving needs you to think so so much!!!!!

Farking freaked out when I'm supposed to let water into my mask. I'm so use to swimming w/o a goggles, yet I'm freaking out in this situation. I just don't feel good now. Everything seem so worrying to me now.

Scared scared!

Freedom Regain?

Gosh! Within 10 hours and I'm so so free from all these torment.. And I'm suppose to set off to Tioman for my diving trip.. Erm.. Like tomorrow, and I'm so not prepared.. All I can think of now is my paper later. Hopefully these 3 hours of sleep is able to do me some good. But totally fark maths now. It's so killing and draining. I'm barely alive now. GOSH! Yet I've pool session for diving in the evening.

I doubt I'll be standing by 10 tonight.

God bless me. And I'll let fate take me to where I'm suppose to be.

Total MADNESS!

Had my calculus paper this afternoon and I'm totally wiped out now. My brain's totally dead now. But a part of me is happy about everything now. Since in less than 3 days, I'm going to regain my freedom and enjoy my DIVE!!! WHOOPEE....



Been bounded for the past one month.. GOSH!! I'll make sure I clear my room and invite ppl over for gathering soon. Thou shall cook too... LOVE!!! Keline, I'll make you buttery BUTTER CAKE!!!



Waiting for train. I miss home and bed so much!!
Just realised I look super lonely in the pic. Cause I'm the one and only person there.. SobS!! I miss the bunch of monkeys!!!!!!!!

Mission: Clear Abstract Mathematics and go for diving pool session.
HUGZ!

Memories!!!



Was browsing thru' some stranger's blog and came across this song. GOSH!! It really bring back memories. Those were the days that we took our chance to skip classes just for practises. But the real motive is to skip classes and play! LOVELY!!!!

Darling girls, remember this song? It's jus made me smile listening to it. Hope you girls still remember. LOVE!!!!!

HUGS!

I'm not WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

he's USELESS and he'll ALWAYS BE... What's a being a book smart person. FARK YOU!!!!!!!!! I'm totally misunderstood and nothing i say can make u listen so be it. I can do things on my own... You always say I dun know how to survive in society. Yet you complain that you always get beaten out there. That's because you don't know to be smart and only know how to be naive. So whatever I said just make u think I'm a total jerk and inhuman animal. So be it!!!!!!!!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE

6 more days...





I'm COUNTING DOWN til the day my feet leaves Singapore for 4 days. This motivates me to move on. I CAN MAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHOO-PEEE

But why am I so sleepy. UGH!

Max got back his results and he scored well... SHUCKS!! He got As lah... What the hell!!!! I'm so lousy... Gosh.. Mama's going to have 1 kid who's going to get second upper class which is Max and 1 kid who's going to get 3rd grade and that's me...

Fark!
I dun wanna be loser!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OOGIE BOOGIE

I'm so damn SCREWED!!!!!!!!!!

Everything's lying around and it's getting on my nerves. Yet I can find the time to sort them out. I'm so pissed. UGH!!!!!

I'm living in the pig sty now.. Or rather the UNTIDY pig sty....
Moody!

NONSENSE!!!!!!

BRAIN DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's a long long day and I'm so so DRAIN. Brain dead since morning's linear algebra paper.. Met Jordan for another session is brain damaging session. Having diving theory after an examination isn't a ideal choice. And ya, Mr Jordan, I aint a pig, even if any fish attacks me, it isn't because I look like their food. Prolly you're!! *grins*

And I passed the paper. WHOO-PEE!!!!!
Never wanna do this quiz again. It's so dreadful!

I'm brain dead. Cant think!!!!!
UGH!



1 Day nearer to the SUNNY SIDE! I love BEACHES!!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!

RANDOM




Sunset from Tioman. Dreamland til 14th June '07.
HUGZ!

STRESS OUT?



I'm so stressed out. Hmmm.. Or rather am stress, but there's nothing much for me to do. I'm so sick of all these. UGH! Jordan so excited bout the trip next week. Yet I cant seem to feel a little enthu. about the whole trip. SHUCKS!!! Was still looking forward to all before the exams started. But now, it seems like a get away from reality. SIGH!

Having Linear Algebar tmr, and people please don't come to me and tell me that it's just maths. Although I've to agree that maths that we use to learn is easy like shit. But those that I'm mugging now, is able to give you brain damages. I think mine's corrupted. GOSH! So if you see me doing foolish stuffs, you know the reason to it. Anywayz, hopefully every goes well tmr morning so I can go for diving theory with a safe mind.



So when can i stop whining???
And so eager to change into my party clothes and jump into the world of smoke and drinks... YUCKS!! Why would I to do that? I doubt so. I wanna give my body a real good time, relaxing under the sun, enjoying the sea breeze and having my ice cold beer. Miao and Cordy interested? WHOO!!!! I just love chilling out....

For now, it's wash up and back to the books..

I love y'all!!! Take care PEOPLE...
Better get enough rest. Cause after my exams I'm going to start bugging people to hang out with me!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT FOOLS DO?





Ya!!!! On the webcam and act cute!
*EVIL LAUGHTER*

OOGIE BOOGIE

SASHIMI!!!

I woke up to a sunny bright SUNDAY feeling so good. I've forget all unhappiness and I'm going to blog on something that pierre's going to drool.





Need a break off my studies! But I feel fatter now.. UGH! I wanna JOG and SWIM now...
End all these brain wrecking exams!

Bad servicing!!!!

Met Juv and Keline to study this morning at town's library. But wasn't fruitful since we were chased out in the midst of studying. And since they wanted to buy some stuffs from "The Face Shop", we went down to buy. Understand that the shop's kinda cramp and my bag's BIG!!! So I felt kinda clumsy moving in. But this particular salesgirl just cut into our line and I was kinda left out from the babes. So I thought never mind, at the same time wondering what's that girl doing. Later part, she started explaining to them about some facial product. Main problem is, the girls wanted me to see that product too. But the salesgirl made it impossible to do so. Cause she typically just stood right in front of me. This time round I felt totally left out. FARK YOU, BITCH!!!! I don't need you to explain to me. UGH! I think I can afford something better.....

She really pushed me to my limits. So I walked away and looked at other stuffs.. Then she start eyeing me like I'm going to STEAL!!! BIATCH, LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR TO YOU, YOUR PRODUCTS THERE ARE CHEAP AND I CAN AFFORD. EVEN IF IT'S CLINQUE OR CLARINS I CAN STILL AFFORD. MAKING IT CLEAR TO YOU, YOUR PRODUCTS ARE SO MUCH CHEAPER THAN THEIRS SO YOU NEED NOT WORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm PISSED!!!

Not bothering that bitch, I told Ju and Keline that I aint happy with her attitude like leaving me out on purpose. If I'm seriously not interested , i'll just move off without being pissed. But now, I felt like I can buy some products, but because of her farking attitude, i decided not to.

Kinda think of it. I'm in need of a liquid eyeliner. Hmm... Why make my life difficult jus because of her. So I took the tester and ask Keline if she thinks it's worth buying. Then when both of us were discussing, this bitch came over again. GIVE ME SOME SPACE LAH... GOSH!!! Then keline and I were saying that brown might be more suitable for me. Cause I think black makes me look malay. *I'm not being racist here. Just that I get people speaking to me in malay and I feel wierd at times* So I asked the bitch to get me the brown one cause I don't wanna to be mistaken for a malay. She was shocked and told me that she thought I'm a malay....

FARKING ANGRY WHEN I HEARD THAT!!!!!!!!!!
NO WONDER THE WHOLE TIME SHE NEVER SERVE ME. JUST BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT THAT I'M A MALAY, SO SHE DIDN'T WANNA SERVE ME. FARK YOU, BITCH! WHAT IF I'M A MALAY, IT GIVES YOU NO EXCUSE NOT TO SERVE ME. WHETHER I'M A ALIEN OR ANIMAL, ONCE I STEP INTO THE STORE, YOU JOLLY WELL SERVE ME.

LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR TO YOU. IF YOU'RE SO FARKING CAPABLE, YOU WONT BE SERVING ME NOW, IT WOULD BE THE REVERSE. BUT I'M SO SO SORRY. IT'S NOT HAPPENING NOW. AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHAN'T BE RACIST HERE. CAUSE YOU'RE A "MIC" AND KNOW WHAT YOU'RE EARNING OUR MONEY. IF YOU'RE GOOD, GO BACK TO CHINA AND MAKE TONS. DON'T STAY HERE. *I'm sorry. not referring to all china people, jus that this one is making me flare. thousand of apologies* I'M NEVER RACIST AND I DON'T DISCRIMINATE ANY RACE. I LOVE ALL, UNLESS YOU STEP ON MY TAIL.

After the whole process of knowing that I'm a chinese, she started treating me well... BUT know what, I still speak to you in english. Cause I don't see the need in speaking chinese just to be accepted by you. FARK YOU, BITCH!!! You're lucky I didn't complain about you. Thank god for that. Cause he told me it's a bright sunny and happy day.

But UGH! You spoilt it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

While making our way out of the store, Ju told me that the bitch asked her something, "You're chinese and you cant speak chinese?"

Oh BITCH, she's not exactly a chinese rather a Indonesian-Chinese. And she learn english and malay. For her to speak that amount of chinese, you should be amaze and proud. Cause your level of english isn't half of hers. And she do not have to accommodate to you by speaking chinese.

LIKE FARK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU MADE ME EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Supper for Grab



My supper from Miao!

My DREAM PLACE NOW


I wanna be at BIKINI BOTTOM NOW... I hate BOOKSSSSS!!!!!!!!

MESSED UP

Gosh!!! My brain is so messed up, just like my temporary study table. HA!
Never mind about the table. It's my exams that are more important. Sigh!
I'm in deep shit this time round.

Stinky's not around!

This is awkard. I'm suppose to introduce myself here. But I guess if you are able to read this page, you are 80% a very close pal of mine. Which also means whatever I've typed here is just bullsh*t. Aint I right? Just continue reading my random-ness then.

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