REFLECTIONSTime flies and a year had pass again. And it's once again time to do some self-reflections. There's been some good and bad stuffs that happen during this really short year. Tried my best for my papers, but it came out rilly dissappointing. I really thought to myself like what haveI done for the pass months mugging like shit and not getting anything into my tiny little brain. It's seems so easy for others, yet my hard work din pay off. And now, I've yet to see the pic tat the next one is nearing. I'm in deep shit this time. UGH!!!!
My happiest time during this year would the time when I was having my exams. Not that I'm that insane to enjoy mugging and no sleeping. But someone was there to comfort when I need it. I'm really thankful for that. It's like a miracle, cause he knows when to be there and always at the right time. Or prolly when you fancy in someone, anything jus seems to be at the right time and right place. Thinking that things were going right, but I'm sad to say that it jus din work out. Cause it had nvr started. Aint it funny? Sometime life's jus unpredictable. You nvr know what will be coming your way. The more you crave for it to happen, the more you need to work for it. But I know I'll get nowhere with it, so might as well play along and prolly when game's over, we'll move on with our lives.
I've not be a good girl this year, or rather I've no be a good one for my pass 8 years.. Playing truant and behaving like a insane woman. My poor folks have been worrying about me for that long. Or prolly my mum??!!?? This been a bad year for her as well. Been admitted to A&E during exam period. And you'll not believe me, I got in b'cos of clubbing and over-dose of alcohol. FUCK THAT BARTENDER!!! *haha* Saw my mum cried. Like gosh!!! I promised it wont happen, but it happened again not long ago. I hate my lifestyle @ times. But things jus not going right. I know I'm no good at controlling myself and it sucked.
My life is totally ruined by myself. And I seemed to be moving to another worse stage now. I hate to see myself this way. Some jus tell me off, yet others tell me that's part of life. Some accepted the way I'm growing up, some jus cannot stand the way I treated myself, be it metally or physically. I'm responsible to every step I take. And I'm the only one who can solve my problems.
I'm really thankful for the people who are around me during my lowest time as well. People came into my life and sadly some left too. That's life. But I'm gald to say I still have my very closed ones with me. Mav made me very touched last night. Thanks buddy!!!
I jus feel fortunate that I've all the people I love still with me.
I love all my darlings!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's time for a change. Hopefully for the better.
Best wishes to ME and ALL!!
Thanks!
I'm feeling: fresh again
