Sunday, November 26, 2006 @ 6:20 PM
Damn! I feel like trash!!!!
Was still feeling good in the afternoon and now I feel like shit!! It's so dumb jus to sit and wait. But I jus cant get myself out of this blardie stupid shittie HOLEY!!!! URGH! I'm jus getting sick of life sometimes. And when everything is back to normal, someone would jus appear and spoil the whole mood. Last week was ONG and now it's YOU!!!! When can my life be led normally?? When all of you jus step out of it and leave me alone?? It's easy for me to say and definitely for you to do, but I doubt I'll be handling it well.. DAMN! This PMS thingy is making me a whining BIATCH!!!!!!
CONTRADICTION!!!! And it totally SUCKS!!!!! Cause I'm always able to tell others what to do and I'm not able to even convince myself into doing it!!!! So all these while, I'm jus uttering nonsense to al'... I cant believe it!! I thot I was strong but i aint. I thot I knew it all, but I actually don't. I'm living my everyday trying to physco myself and it's so disgusting to me.
Jus call me DUMBO!
Thursday, November 16, 2006 @ 2:12 PM
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
I'll go ahead and pour myself a drink
I really couldn't care less what you think
Well I don't have to listen now
Live this day down
If I can't feel a thing
You might as well save your goodbyes
We can give this train wreck one last ride
I'm gonna have to listen now
Live this day down
If I don't make things right
I'll tell you one last time
I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
I woke up with a heartbeat in my head
I reached for the bottle by the bed
I saw your side was not slept in
Cold sheets again
Remind me of what you said
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye
I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't want to know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
I don't wanna know it's over
So save your goodbye kiss
I don't wanna know it's over
Cause ignorance is bliss
Now I know I can't stay sober
Cause you left me here like this
I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
So save your goodbye kiss
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
(I don't wanna know)
Cause ignorance is bliss
I can hardly see
What's in front of me
Cause the vodka's running on empty
I can't stay sober
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
If it's over
If it's over
I don't wanna know
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 @ 6:20 PM
WE'RE GOING SUBA DIVING!!!!
Feeling kinda bad now. Cause i'm suppose to go diving with Ivan. But his company have yet to do any planning for it and it's making me get these ants on my butt and I'm so impatient to wait. So I've to say sorry to him. And since my opportunity is right in front of me now. JORDAN!!!! He's into diving as well.. YEAH!
You rock, DUDE!
But we've got bad news when we were doing some research on it. Cause it's malaysia's monsoon season. Which means we can only get our cert while diving in Singapore waters. And it bring all the excitment down.. :( But no choice. I cant wait til march.. It's too long and I doubt I cant wait that long.. :)
No problem, DUDE! We'll go ahead and go malaysia for diving next time...
SHIOKNESSSS!!!!!!
Jordan et Moi
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 @ 11:18 AM
Reality or Realistic??
Or does reality make us more realistic??? I'm confused. People always tell us to face the reality, so that we'll not make naive decisions. But when we start to think on that side, they say that we're people who lack of compassion. So what should we do? Meaning that we have to be more flexible and choose on the right issue to be realistic on? That's insane! Cos in the real world there's no time for such stuffs.
You've not step out to see and so many things are so different out there. So don't tell me what to do.
DAMN! I've become angsty lately... UGH!
Saturday, November 11, 2006 @ 11:36 PM
GONE!
BABY, you're GONE! I tried to occupy myself with so many stuffs to make me realise tat u're not impt to me... I thought I succeed, but part of me know that I'm not right! Knowing that I cant find a reason to blame either of us. It sucks to be in these shoes now.
UGH!
Coldness!!!! I'm pissed with YOU *kevin ong*!
You don't jus call me up and ask for things you want... Where the hell were you??? U come and go as you like. Have you thot of how other ppl feel!!! It doesn't mean that you're the only one who have down days... I HAVE IT TOO!!!! Where were you when I needed a shoulder!!! Fark SHIT!!! When you were back with her, you din even tell me!! And I've to hear it from JAYNE..
I don't give a damn now that you need anything!!! Stop calling me!!!
And you don't even know how to ask ppl things nicely! Why do u have to ask if i got ur illustrator disc... DAMN! I wanted to borrow it the other time, and you asked me to d/l it myself... Now you sms and ask if i took your disc, cause you cant find it at home... What were you thinking... I'm very pissed now!!!
I feel so dumb after I replied... I should jus ignore it lah!
DON'T CALL ME ANYMORE... YOU DON'T EXIST IN MY LIFE!!!
Thursday, November 09, 2006 @ 10:29 PM
Thankful, I'm so thankful for the people around me. They were there to give me a push when I need it and I'm so happy to have them now. :)
THANK YOU!!!!!
They let me know that I'm capable of doing some things which I thought I cant and was thinking of giving up.
Sunday, November 05, 2006 @ 9:04 PM
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
