Friday, August 25, 2006 @ 12:14 AM

There's so much that I wanna say but I don't know how to. I told myself that I must prepare a list before I meet you. But everytime when I see you, I start to blank out and I forget about everything. Maybe it's something good, since I'm able to put all my troubles behind. But I also know that you're not able to know what I'm thinking. And I'm afraid that it might lead to some misunderstanding. I know you're very straight forward with your thoughs, which in another hand I wish I could do the same way. But it seems to turn out the other way. Things sucks now and I'm starting to prepare another long speech and hopefully I'm able to tell you all the next time I see you.
But things don't seem to look as good as before. We seems to be drifting apart and the feeling now is all wrong. I miss the times we were spending time and slacking around. How I wish I'm working so hard now and looking forward for a chill out time with you. But we cant bring back time and I know such situation will happen sooner or later. But what to do! Life gotta go on and I'm feeling fine. Jus that at time all of us need that lil TLC from someone *whom I feel comfortable with*.
I jus wanna say that I need not have to talk alot around you and you wouldn't have to, but I jus feel comfy around you. And I simply love that company. It's so easy to type all this online. But it seems to take so much jus to open my fucking mouth to say this out. UGH! In my mind, I'm thinking whether you'll ever see this, BUT I think you better not. It's jus so embarrassing! But I still like the kinda relationship we're having.
I told Bear when I was on bus with him jus now that, r/s phobia is getting onto me. I'm just dumb to think of these now, since I'm happy now.
Hopefully, we're doing good for now?!?

everything seems so fuck merde!

Friday, August 25, 2006 @ 12:14 AM

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