Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 2:35 PM

CHANGED!

Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 9:02 PM

1. what is the best nickname you ever had?
ZENZ!

2. which way of suicide will you choose?
something that will not feel me feel too much of pain.

3. rate your social life from 1 to 10.
I'm bad at this!! Maybe 1??? [hahaha]

4. are you in love with someone at the moment?
Not really.

5. are you missing someone at the moment?
Kind of.

6. will you die for the one you love?
If I really love the person.

7. do you think love hurts?
At times.

8. what is the best thing about love?
It feels so so good that you don't even wanna lose it.
It's easy to get into it and so difficult to let go as well.

9. what is the worst thing about love?
When you feel that the love from the other party fades.

10. will you wait for someone you love?
I don't know. But I believe life moves on. And if it's worth of me waiting I might.

11. what song best describes your love life at the moment?
*don't know leh*

12. do you wanna get married?
Not anytime soon.

13. have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
kind of.

14. do you keep memories?
Only the good ones. I've serious short term memories.

15. is love always on your side or the opposite?
Kinda opposite. But it's all up to FATE!

16. are you sick of love?
NO! I still love being loved.

17. are you sick of the question love?
it makes one jaded at times.

18. what are you going to do tomorrow?
Going to meet my sister and down to BBQ.

19. what do you want so badly now?
To meet *someone*.

20. what's the song you last downloaded?
Far Away by Nickelback

21. how much do you love music?
SO VERY MUCH THAT I CANT LIVE WITHOUT IT!!!!!!!!!

22. do you play an instrument?
I play lots of instruments. which one are you referring to????
*evil laughter*

23. what movie did you last watch?
EEYER!! LOVE WRECKED.
Girly shows are so not me!!!!!!!!!!!!
Another 8 bucks thrown into the sea

24. do you believe in love forever?
I do believe in love. But not forever. Everybody changes and no matter how faithful you're, there's always a part of you yearning for something or someone better.

25. what's in your mind now?
How's the EPL match i'm going to watch ltr be.. And what you're going to do ltr..

26. what song is in your mind now?
Yellow by Coldplay.

27. five people to do this.
Kaz, Kaz, Kaz, Kaz and still KAZ. So babe, you better do it real fast! [haha]

Friday, August 25, 2006 @ 12:14 AM

There's so much that I wanna say but I don't know how to. I told myself that I must prepare a list before I meet you. But everytime when I see you, I start to blank out and I forget about everything. Maybe it's something good, since I'm able to put all my troubles behind. But I also know that you're not able to know what I'm thinking. And I'm afraid that it might lead to some misunderstanding. I know you're very straight forward with your thoughs, which in another hand I wish I could do the same way. But it seems to turn out the other way. Things sucks now and I'm starting to prepare another long speech and hopefully I'm able to tell you all the next time I see you.
But things don't seem to look as good as before. We seems to be drifting apart and the feeling now is all wrong. I miss the times we were spending time and slacking around. How I wish I'm working so hard now and looking forward for a chill out time with you. But we cant bring back time and I know such situation will happen sooner or later. But what to do! Life gotta go on and I'm feeling fine. Jus that at time all of us need that lil TLC from someone *whom I feel comfortable with*.
I jus wanna say that I need not have to talk alot around you and you wouldn't have to, but I jus feel comfy around you. And I simply love that company. It's so easy to type all this online. But it seems to take so much jus to open my fucking mouth to say this out. UGH! In my mind, I'm thinking whether you'll ever see this, BUT I think you better not. It's jus so embarrassing! But I still like the kinda relationship we're having.
I told Bear when I was on bus with him jus now that, r/s phobia is getting onto me. I'm just dumb to think of these now, since I'm happy now.
Hopefully, we're doing good for now?!?

everything seems so fuck merde!

Saturday, August 19, 2006 @ 1:51 PM

1. What made you smile today?
Nope. I haven't smile since morning.

2. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
SLEEPING and SNORING away

3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Watching Teen Titans on Kids Central

4. Something that happened to you in 1986?
I was one at that time. And I cant rmb a f**king thing.

5. Your prom night?
Was there one?? My sch is such pathetic....
Maybe stayed as bimbotic during my D&D(s)

6. Last thing you said aloud?
Asking my DAD to lower down his volume. It's causing pain to my ears....

7. Last thing someone else said aloud?
Crap from daddy this morning.

8. Worst thing currently on television?
DATE MOVIE that I was watching with maverick yst...

9. What was in the mail today?
JUNK!

10. How many different beverages have you drank today.
Had earl grey and lemon tea.

11. What is your favorite part of the day?
NIGHT-TIME. Slping time!

12. Your current To-do list?
SAVE MOO-LA and GO ON MY DIVING TRIP!!!!
I'm serious here.

13. Where is/are your best friend(s) right now?
I don't know.

14. What color is your toothbrush?
In white and green.

15. What is out your back door?
nothing.

16. Any plans for Friday night?
Whoo. That's yesterday and I jus rot at home, HATE TO BE SICK!

17. Least favorite place to shop?
Town on WEEKENDS....
PACKED like MERDE!

18. Last thing you bought?
Lozenges for sore throat.

19. Last gift you received?
$50 adidas voucher from Maverick and Kaz.

20. Funniest thing you heard all day?
I cant rmb.

21. Favorite mug?
I like champange glasses. (haha)

22. What color is your front door?
BROWN! my fav.

Spill Your Guts:

1. First thing you did this morning?
Talk to mummy.

2. Last thing you ate?
Very yucky HOR FUN.

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
TOTALLY... It sucks and I've to stick to it for the next 2 years... KILL ME PLEASE.

4. What’s something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
TML's LUNCH WITH MY BUDDIES!!!!!

5. What’s annoying you right now?
Everything seems to be a pain in my ass right now.
I've been annoyed with almost all things and everyone lately..
Jus kill me and i'll be out here!
Angst!

6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships?
Maybe. I don't know. I've yet to tried that out.
But if I sure do, I'll be misery thinking about the other partner.

7. Is there a person who’s on your mind right now?
At times. But I don't know what I want now.

8. Who is the last person you called?
JAYNE.

9. Do you look like your mom or dad?
MUMMY, but of cos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
NO!

11. Do you wish on stars?
I don't think so. I jus like to stare at them. Esp when I lie on the beach...

12. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
NO... Troublesome!

13. What is the most disgusting food you’ve ever eaten?
too many to name.

14. Would you kill someone?
Maybe in my dreams. But not in real life.

15. When did you last cry?
Last night. Erm. But for no reason, I jus breakdown..
Guess I'm totally mad...

16. Are you a friendly person?
I guess so. I don't know.

17. Are you keeping a secret from the world?
Wat secret???

18. Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
MINE! And no others can lie on it. [HAHA]

19. What is the color of your bedsheets?
BROWN!

20. What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
Chatting online.

Friday, August 18, 2006 @ 10:20 PM

This is aburd.
Humans are contradicting.
Emotions runs thru' us.
Maybe they want more, But i choose not to.
It bothers me, though it toally have nothing to do with me.
I'm WIERD.
TOTALLY!

Thursday, August 17, 2006 @ 11:40 PM

Love this clip to bits...
They have the best vocals there..
And JAZZ simply melts my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006 @ 11:24 PM

I blame myself for not moving on and bugging. But I just cant, it just keeps coming and I kept telling myself that it isn't anything serious. But it jus gets to me. I hope with you ard I'll be able to move on and on and on and on...........

Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 11:31 PM

It all seems like a coincidence. But I jus cant risk it. So I changed it. Hopefully this is the way out and I feel much better now.

Sunday, August 13, 2006 @ 12:43 AM

I realise one thing... I LOVE being loved and cared by the people around me. Let's be realistic and let me repharse... I LOVE being loved and cared by the GUYS around me. But I've never thought of getting all these just by getting into a relationship... I guess I'm wierd!!!!!!!!!! Maybe things are jus different now, since many stuffs had happened thru' the years.
Hopefully, there's one day that will make me change the way I look at things.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006 @ 10:39 PM

Have to post this up. I missed my chance to catch fireworks that day. But youtube.com made it up thou'.. I LOVE THE ENDING TO BITS!!!!
My life seems so similar to fireworks. For one time, I'm enjoying what i had and soon everything's gone again. Who knows what will come next? Maybe another very pretty fireworks.

Hmm... I guess sometimes making small talks will end up getting attacked. But if makes the others feel better, then you can jolly well go ahead and enjoy it, cause I don't rilly give a damn about it. Althou' I am feeling angst a lil now. But it's soon go. Cause who are you to judge me and what I do.

I'm good. I'm good!

Saturday, August 05, 2006 @ 11:31 PM

I tried not to think about it lately. But the more I resist it jus come back.. And so many things that happen lately jus made me confused and there's a someone in my path which made my life a lil more difficult. And her so-called "golden words" are affecting me real hard and it's been hard for me to move on. I'm pleased to know you're there, but sometime a shoulder and listening ear is enuff to make me comfortable. And I'm not that strong girl whom all of you think I'm... I consider myself a cold-blooded mammal, but at times I do feel as well, I do think bout stuffs that happen as well...

I still love you all.... I cant afford to lose any of you. I appreciate your love and presence....

Was watching < The Fast and The Furious > the other with my bro's harddrive.. Althou' I din complete the show, cause it SUCKS.... But I kinda fell in love with this song. Erm... And it's not usual that I'm listening to such genre now..

Thursday, August 03, 2006 @ 9:53 PM

insecurity sets in and it's making me lost. I need to be left alone.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006 @ 11:02 AM

Why m I over-reacting nowadays? I start to question myself now and then and I know it's so dumb of me to do so. A darling of mine asked me a question that day that left me thinking.. She asked how would I treat my boy in the future. *erm and that's if I find one in the near future* I don't know. But I can say it's definitely different. But for her to pop this question to me jus made me ponder why my closest friend would look at me that way. It's find to play and juggle ard with fire and wrong when you sit down and think of it. Some say they think I'm capable of doing it and they cant. But I've my time when I think it isn't right as well. But it jus keep coming to me and I jus cant resist. So the real problem jus simply lies in me. And I know it all along. Jus that I can be bothered to get them solve.