I'm GOING NUTS TIS TIME~!!!!!
ERGH~* I'm facing reality now... And dere's nowhere I can run and nowhere I can hide now... Cos the fact is right in front of me and tat's MOCK EXAMS!!!!!!! It's in MARCH and I'm freaking our oreadi.. I can imagine myself pee-ing in my PANTS... Erm.. Or mebbe skirt at the examination hall....
It's so SHITTY!!!!!
I dunnoe what to do.... I realise I received another msg today and I'm kinda down.. But I'm not going to announce it here... *bleah* U can jolly go guess bahz.. [heez] Anywayz, tat's not the most impt thing... Cos I on n off I'm owas telling myself which are my stand and what m I working towards... Althou' I know this is not wat I wish for, but since I'm already in it den might as well give it my best shot...
On the other hand, I know I'll not do well for it... Cos my attitude aint right... But since I'm left with the LAST quarter... Den I'll do my best... Sometime my heart tells me tat this is not wat I want.. But how many of us are realli doing something tat we realli like...???
Was teaching KEL caculus maths jus now, and I realise I actualli missed the days in poly and doing wat I did in de past.. But another side of me told me tat I din wanna work in tat industry... SEE HOW LIFE CAN BE SO CONTRADICTING!!!!
Told my uncle during CNY tat my DEGREE tat I'm pursuing now seemed to be my stepping stone to the next level... But he told me tat it's not the case, I should study something tat can help me in my future and it's obvious tat tis is not...
I dunnoe wat I want now.. Althou' I know my heart loves ART now... But I also know myself well tat I'm not a strong-minded person... A part of me often flickers and my decision owas changes and I'm afraid tat wateva I do now might not end up to be the "one" thing which I'm looking for...
LIFE IS KINDA PAIN..???!!!!????
So major question.... Does migrane leads to BRAIN TUMOR...
Cos if it does... It might be able to solve my problem now....
I'll jus lay back and wait for it to take my life away...
Erm... does saying tis make me sound more outta of mind...????
