MEENA freaked me out....

SHIT!!!! Was last lesson for maths yst.. Den she totally freaked me out... SHUCKS~* Cant understand wateva she's trying to deliver to us.. I think it's gone case this time round... ERGH~* No time for play, thou my heart still thinking of it...

When everything seems stuck, I jus feel like running away.... Running away from reality... I jus wan to!!!! Things running wild in my head and I cant figure out why... Doubts start flowing in.. And mind seems blocked... Ocuupying myself wif work but nothing fruitful...

It's BAD BAD BAD!!!!!!!!!!

I need antidote to get myself outta tis situation...
But who shd I get it from????

I'm SUFFOCATING...!!!!!!!

- freaking out -

SINNER!!!
[GOSH]
I've done lotsa sinful stuffz lately....
Munching choc[s] during the lovely season.....
Drowning in caffine......
Popping drugs [*painkillers*]
And some stuffz which I dun wish to say...
These are simply sinful.....
ERGH~*
Where's self-discipline...????
It's getting from bad to worse....
Owas telling myself that it's the last time...
But I'm owas creating excuse to let myself to it again....
ERGH~* Wassup wif me...!!!!!!!!!!

msg: PHEW~*

Migrane's fatal esp when under lotsa stress.... ERGH~* Met Kaz last evening, lotsa stuffz running thru' my head... Thinking of lotsa stuffz... And i jus broke-down!!!! Once again, it owas happen during the exam season and it owas does.... Kinda sick huh.... Anywayz, I miss my coffee wif KAZ darling... [HEEZ] Thanx babe...

Anywayz, was waiting for her at the MRT station when I felt dupa uneasy... Or shd I say I felt wierd when I was studying wif my darlings... ERM~* Guess memories flow back to my head.. Mostly bad or shd I say I cant even think of nice things if GOD realli wants us to see each other... Sometimes I think it's no big deal if one day we bump into each other... Then the other side of me says tells me if we realli sees each other wat's gonna happen... I've beem the one who avoids it and I've been the one tat .......... I dun know how to say either... It's simply sucks to be in this situation... Therefore that the place I try not to step into as much as possible...

SHITZ!!!! I'll nvr get pass this.... [HAHA]

I'm owas giving myself time to take breaks on and off.... So here I'm taking a break off the books and crapping online...

Anywayz, was out wif mimee tis morning for breakfast... Met Rich. later... The interesting and fun part I liked bout de whole meetup wif him was discussing how to make he's business @ de sch better... Came up wif many ideas... But as you know, aunty's *referring to mimee* sometimes are not wat sch kids wants...

So that's my job to think whether it's going to work out or not... And it's so fun when we came out wif so many ideas and my head is filled with experiments which I can try out aft all my exams... WHOO~* I'm going to be a baker... WAHAHA~* So many things I wanna try out....

But back to reality, mock's 2 weeks away and my head is exploding soon... ERGH~* Migrane is killing and popping painkillers are useless...

SOBZ!!

I want my coffee break..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finallie got time to catch up wif frens whom I haven got to contact since like dunnoe when... And it's kinda sad when she told me that she haven hear me since last year.... I'm so sorry....

Sometimes I agree that I'm that lazy bum whom dun make effort to do stuffz and being the submissive kind.... Which is seldom, but when it comes to organising stuffz... YESH~!!!! I kind be quite a bum and leave it to others to do it...

But I'm realli sorry la... [heez] Will hit down ur place soon... :)

Was on phone wif her yst and I realise there so much about me which I din know and it's kinda sad to hear all from her... *SIGH* Recalling back the years, I was telling her how engineering wasn't my cup of tea during poly days... And the same thing happened yst, when I told her I realli dunnoe wat I wanna do and the course I'm doing currently might not be the thing I wan as well.... I really dunnoe wat I wan now...

Things I wish were mine wont... Things I wish to do doesn't seems to work out...
Everything that I was planning jus din work out... Sometimes I feel that I'm living for the other rather than myself... So when can I control my life...??? It sucks..!!!!
But since I've started all these, might as well get it done and carry on with wat I want.. Hopefully someday I'll be able to fulfil my dreams....

*SIGH SIGH SIGH*

Let things happen naturalli...??? NO~* If I have to go wif the flow... I'll neva get things done... So I'm planning my pretty dream now... :) I want to make it happen...

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Got pics from Von.. Taken on Ping's 21st....

It's was totally cool.... I LOVED IT SO SO MUCH... *hopefully all of them are reading tis...*
They are simply lovely ppl... And I love them to bits...

And I wanna thank the ppl for the gifts.... Let me see wat I got...

• SINS Chocolate from darling Cranbellie....
  
• Home-made Chocolate from Serling... And she made it herself... How thot-ful for her... Appreciate it so so muchie... Nvr hiamp... [heez] It taste gr8...!!!!
  
• Chocolate from my dear SENIOR, Kenny...
• Chocolate from Sausanova....
  

It's a sinful v.day cos I got all chocolates... OH NO~*
But I'm going to eat them all up... So thank you everyone for spending some love to me... Love all to TINY-bits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went shopping for Serling's b'day prezzie... And got her a set of new clothing... The new and sporty gurl..!!!! She looks gr8 la... SK came down town to meet us for a while... :) Den when off wif his plans... Had dinner at wheellock's NYDC, cos Raine n I were craving so so much for MUDPIES...!!!!!!!! *drooling*

OOPS...

Den head down to esplanade to feel lovely dovey and get surrounded with lotsa couples... [HAHA] And lucky us, we got to enjoy a performance... WHOO~* The band was super gr8 and dey were singing songs that I know... I was typically singing along wif them... But I feel a lil' akward cos I've noone beside me... SOBBIE... The babe and hunk was sitting the step below me... I looked so lonely, singing to myself... [AH DUH~*] But the music was enuff to make me melt...

They sang "Fly me to the moon" one of my fav, song by maroon 5, "Angels" by Robbie Williams and etc.... Sometimes I realli wish I've the chance to stand up on a stage and start singing to ppl... Hai~* So ppl if you've jamming session, can u offer a chance to SAM..????

Kaz came down wif Jonathan to join us too... SWEET~!!!! More ppl make it more fun to hang ard... I love crowd.. But onli wif ppl i know... That's why u can seldom see Sam appearing in chinatown during CNY and town during X'mas... It sucked to squeeze thru ppl and get touched by ppl u dun know... [HAHA]

I did something which I'm not suppose to do again... [HAHA] I'm suppose to feel like shit.. But I'm not now... Oh no*! This is bad bad bad!!!! My self-discipline is bad...!!!! [HAHA]

Came home and got a lil' pissed... ERGH!!! Daddy actualli put my hair wax into the fridge and he still can tell me that he's afraid that it'll spoil... DUH!!!! I'm not suppose to be pissed la... Since he was doing it out of courtesy... But I feel that it's kinda ridiculous la.... But I'm good good now... [HAHA]

Chatting wif gorgeous(s) again... [haha]
Off to dig the fun dey had on v.day....

A year had pass and it another Valentine...

Wishing all babes and hunks a super duper lovely V.Day....
Enjoy ur day wif ur love one... If you haven find that one yet... Jus do the same thing that I'm doing... :) Ask your love onessssssssss out... [HAHA]

stuck in school now... Waiting for the launching for the blardie stupid e-rev.. It simply sucks gr8 time la... BUt the thot of going out wif my darlings babes makes everything better... I'm craving for chocolates and hugs already... Kayz.. School's com is simply lacking... Anyone out there wanna donate some to us... [WHAHAHA] Dere're lotsa ppl ard waiting to occupy the com... Luckily, Zenz kiasu.. Came earlier to get things done... Hoping to see c. , but to dissapointment... But it's okay since I know coming to book this lousy PC is actualli worth it... [HAHA]

Where's SERLING...!!!! Rotting in library alone is no good feeling.... And why cant time jus pass faster... ERGH~* I'm waiting for a war to start... That's what Eric told me yst... [HAHA] Hopefully I wont get weekend classes again... It's no good to travel an hour to sch on a weekend... Weekend is meant to be a day to lay back and relax.... [Heez]

More n more ppl are hitting the cyberstation and it seems that war is realli going to start... Oh no... Get mouse ready to fight war!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Erm... And den Dey usually end that with "with Love"....
But that's not wat i'm going to type this...

So ppl who light up Zenz wer.. Simply RAWK ON~!!!!
*hopefully u know who you're*

I'm watching the latest LOCAL productions "9 lives" on art central now... And it ROCKS~!!! Been supporting it since they started the series called "Singapore Short Story Projects"....



Check it out~!!!!!

And I got machi's latest look from owner, AGENT BEN..!!!

Please tell me that Agent Mao is jus mean to scruch darling MACHI's face...!!! [HAHA] And he can tell me tis is one of her very cool looks... Erm...~!!!! NO NO NO~!!!! MACHI tell him tat you're in pain...!!! *bleah*


She looks the best this way....
Love her to bits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My life is filled with TOWN and SCHOOL NOW...

It's sick... I miss my fun and I know dere's no more fun for coming 2 or 3 months... ERGH~* Can I leave Singapore for a while and enjoy my lay back life??? Craving to travel ard....

Anywayz, saw something today dat annoys me so much... Was on my way to lavender, den came these 4 "AH BENGS"... Pardon me for this... Cos I haven really see much of Ah Beng(s) since I graduate from secondary school... But it's not b'cos of them being Ah Beng that annoys me... It's their action.... Creating trouble on board... Taking up seats althou knowing that an old uncle need it much more than him.... INCONSIDERATE PEST!!!! Can I kill you like I kill those cockroaches by spraying INSECTISIDE....!!!!!!!

KILL KILL KILL~*

[Sam shall chill]

Anywayz, I've been so so forgetful.... EEKZ!!!! Been to town to buy materials for some occasion... But I keep forgetting ppl on my list... Today went down again, thot I can buy everything and get them done today and get on wif my mugging... But hell~* I miss one out again... ARGH~* It sucks... And I'm feel sorry to bring a sick boy out with me... But going to town alone is kinda boring and esp when town is packed like shit!!! Sam jus need someone by her side to calm her down... [WAHAHA] I sound so so violent now... OppS!!!!!

Waiting for MAX to give up his laptop to me for a minute.. So I can upload the pics in my fonie and post them here....

Took them at orchard's library while I was flipping WALLPAPER magazine... My favourite mag... With lotsa beautiful architectures... PHOTOGRAPHY I LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My life is jus filled wif more n more knowledge...
Thus it's so boring tat I've nothing to blog about....
It's not tat I'm super busy or wat...
But jus simply plain and it sucks gr8 time...

I miss the days when I post pictures and tag about nonsense....

No bones about it, you're a devil-may-care Irish Setter. Fun-loving and light-hearted, life is an adventure for you - an attitude your nearest and dearest find refreshing and inspiring. Witty, with a nose for fun, you can turn any social gathering into an unforgettable event, which is why you're always at the top of the guest list. Your varied interests - anything and everything from sky-diving to club hopping - make you extremely well-rounded. Just make sure you don't get distracted and lose sight of your responsibilities. As long as you stay balanced, you're a lucky dog who will always be a kid at heart - woof!

Back from workout... Feeling so so good... 2 days of workout!!! WHOO~* Thanx BEAR to moving my fat ass.... But it's kinda stupid... Cos I hurt myself @ the pool again... SHUCKS!!!! Sam's injury prone..!!!

But who cares..!!! Sam like to go against the rules... De more I cant do it, I'll go ahead and do it...

Shit~*

Who knows..??!! Tml I'll be lying on my bed not moving... But I believe in living my day to the fullest... Do wateva I lurve to do now..!!! If it's not now then when...???

And yeah~* Aft all the work out and getting refreshed... It's back to WERK WERK WERK again... Have to start my mugging soon... *BLEAH*

Hopefully everything goes jus like I planned...

ERGH~* I'm facing reality now... And dere's nowhere I can run and nowhere I can hide now... Cos the fact is right in front of me and tat's MOCK EXAMS!!!!!!! It's in MARCH and I'm freaking our oreadi.. I can imagine myself pee-ing in my PANTS... Erm.. Or mebbe skirt at the examination hall....

It's so SHITTY!!!!!

I dunnoe what to do.... I realise I received another msg today and I'm kinda down.. But I'm not going to announce it here... *bleah* U can jolly go guess bahz.. [heez] Anywayz, tat's not the most impt thing... Cos I on n off I'm owas telling myself which are my stand and what m I working towards... Althou' I know this is not wat I wish for, but since I'm already in it den might as well give it my best shot...

On the other hand, I know I'll not do well for it... Cos my attitude aint right... But since I'm left with the LAST quarter... Den I'll do my best... Sometime my heart tells me tat this is not wat I want.. But how many of us are realli doing something tat we realli like...???

Was teaching KEL caculus maths jus now, and I realise I actualli missed the days in poly and doing wat I did in de past.. But another side of me told me tat I din wanna work in tat industry... SEE HOW LIFE CAN BE SO CONTRADICTING!!!!

Told my uncle during CNY tat my DEGREE tat I'm pursuing now seemed to be my stepping stone to the next level... But he told me tat it's not the case, I should study something tat can help me in my future and it's obvious tat tis is not...

I dunnoe wat I want now.. Althou' I know my heart loves ART now... But I also know myself well tat I'm not a strong-minded person... A part of me often flickers and my decision owas changes and I'm afraid tat wateva I do now might not end up to be the "one" thing which I'm looking for...

LIFE IS KINDA PAIN..???!!!!????

So major question.... Does migrane leads to BRAIN TUMOR...
Cos if it does... It might be able to solve my problem now....
I'll jus lay back and wait for it to take my life away...

Erm... does saying tis make me sound more outta of mind...????

Went over to her place for celebrattion aft class yst... Back to a place where I frequent when I'm in secondary... Realli miss de days and it's even more warm-hearting when I see the things tat I've done for them back in those days... Tat's super lovely... :)

Before I forget, saw some familiar faces whom I haven been contacting in a while... Like ShuRong, XiuHua and HuiMin... It's so nice to see and talk to them... LUB IT!!!!!!! And also lotsa unfamiliar faces... But we *bear, von n me* came to realise we're the noisiest ard... [HAHA] Mebbe it's because we used to go there so often tat we actualli feel very comfortable ard tat place...

Everything went on very well.. And we were in our own worlds... :) Chatting n gossiping away~* Hmm... It left me thinking wat shd I do on my 21st...

wonder wonder~*

Bon Jovi - All about loving you

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